The Red Room

I have noone to miss now...

2010-10-07T09:58:00.000+02:00

He went...and he changed.
And I don't like the person he's become. But I kind of understand, 'cause you know, people change.
The saddest thing is that they never change back...
We'll see when we meet again. I would like to get to know him and see if I can get used to...whoever he is now...

2010-10-02T12:53:00.000+02:00

I’m not who I am

2010-09-28T18:30:00.000+02:00

Something’s missing...
I don’t quite know how to say how I feel. He’s missing... He’s not near, and it – you expect me to say that it hurts, but – it doesn’t. It’s not hurt that I feel, because I don’t really feel. There’s just this hole inside of me, but on the other hand it’s not really a hole... It’s more like an empty space that his presence used to fill.
And I’m not sad... I’m just lonely... Kind of empty.
I can see the sun shining on my skin, but somehow I don’t feel it. It’s like there is no sun. There is no him. He doesn’t shine on me, and I’m not warm...

How do you feel when there’s no sun?

Heaven in hell or is it hell in heaven?

2010-09-24T10:20:00.001+02:00

Are we treated fairly?
Have you ever thought of that?
Do we deserve all of this? Or, is all of this more than we deserve?
Is there really a higher power, or do we make our own destinies?
Love - war. It's our choice. Wee choose the side. But on the other hand, there is no his or her side. Everybody is on their own side.
We are animals.
And we are doomed to be eternally wild.
If we can be wild - that we can be free. Then, why aren't we satisfied?
What more do we want?
Care.
That's what's missing.
But remember? We chose war. And war doesn't know of care.
What? We change our minds. We choose love.
We have care, we have happyness...but it isn't enough.

Just face it.
We'll never be fully satisfied.
We have spirit, we have soul...but it's blind, and it's deaf.

We are animals.
And we are doomed to be eternally wild.

Am I just like you?

2010-09-22T21:16:00.000+02:00

Or are you just like me?

A poem that brakes your heart

2010-09-21T18:32:00.000+02:00

I wake up
I go to school
I return home
I miss him
I cry

Autor: Princess*

Yeeey!!

2010-09-20T14:10:00.003+02:00

I passed my driver's exam.
Now I just have to get my driver's licence...

For those who think they know me!!

2010-09-19T11:45:00.000+02:00

You're WRONG!!!

The hands of time are never on our side...

2010-09-16T21:52:00.002+02:00

I really wasn't ready for this... But honestly, I don't think that I'd ever be... I just need to get used to not being near him now... And it'll take some time.

Goodbye?

2010-09-14T19:59:00.000+02:00

On Thursday, September the 16th, my boyfriend is leaving the state for 3 months. He's going to Slovakia to Univerzity. It's good, and I'm proud of him because of his will to get educated...but I won't see him for 3 months.
I'm not really ready for something like this, we've never been apart for that long, and I don't know how I'll manage to be ok.
I just hope that I'll get used to it soon...
I'm gonna miss him very, very much...

I could use somebody...

2010-09-12T15:44:00.003+02:00

Irony...

2010-09-10T20:37:00.000+02:00

You know how I told you about that boy and me trying to be friends?
It didn't go well...

(no title)

2010-09-09T21:00:00.000+02:00

This is all I feel today... Just this.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XP_O3fP9P0A

No questions please.

A paperback novel

2010-09-08T23:45:00.002+02:00

There's one thing you didn't know about me.
I have a boyfriend.
For most of you, it's probably no big deal, but if you read my recent posts, you'll find this information quite surprising. Or maybe not.
Yes, I've been cheating on him...

We've been together for about five years, and I've never cheated on him before (yes, I was never with another boy, since I've been 13). But...he cheated on me a few times. That was a long time ago, and I forgave him every time (you are free to be gudgmental about this). He's been faightful for about two years now, and our relationship is just great!
So, why did I cheat on him?
Well... There's a boy in our school, that I like, and that likes me. We've known each other for a couple of months, and the first time we kissed, the first time I was unfaightful, was in April, when we went on an 8-day school trip.
It was exciting... He was the first boy I kissed after 5 years (after my bf, ofcourse), and it felt...different. Not great nor bad...just different. And weard in some way. But I didn't regret it, not a minute of it. We were 'a couple' during these 8 days.
When we returned and continued with our classes, it was even wearder. We saw each other sometimes in a hallway, and it was weard to pass by him and just say 'hi'. But sometimes we kissed... We just set up a meeting, and we kissed...
And then...summer came.
He lives in a city, but I live in a small town about a half an hour from the city... We haven't seen each other the whole summer... Untill September the 1st.
Again, we set up a meeting... This time, nothing happened, just a hug. And it felt nice.
But we continued to chat on-line, and exchange SMS, and the kiss happened again (this was 'the promised kiss' I was telling you about). And It's weard again, because I just don't know what to do. I certanly don't want to break up with my bofriend, but sometimes it happenes that I just have to be with this boy. And most of these times, I 'feed the beast' as I wrote... And it feels great. But the feeling I get after that... The guilt... I start to regret it... But even this feeling lasts only a couple of minutes/hours. Than It's beeing pushed out of my heart by another one, familiar one - lust...
And here we go again... I want him.
I hate this situation I'm in, and I wish that I didn't feel this way! It's frustrating!
Now, we decided not to see each other anymore... We'll stay (just) friends, and that'll be it... And I think (and I'm sure that you're with me on this one) it's a smart decision.
We'll see how it goes...

Blush...

2010-09-07T19:55:00.000+02:00

The school bell rings...I'm walking towards the hall that we set up our meeting in...
I see him, he's already there, waiting for me...I'm getting closer and closer, and...here I am.
'So, now what?'
I didn't even have the time to realize I asked myself that. It just happened. He kissed me...

!!!

2010-09-06T22:05:00.000+02:00

OMG, so many pervs on BlogTV!!! Just go and see - I have banned 14 of them!! It seem like 2 out of 100 of them are the 'normal' ones... It's just disquisting!!

Watch me - watch you

2010-09-06T01:11:00.000+02:00

I signed up for BlogTV, and here's a link, so if you ever feel like watching me - feel free to do it.

PrincessRea- Broadcast your self LIVE

The beast haven't been fed!

2010-09-05T12:26:00.000+02:00

So, the other day, I was with the one that represents passion...
The thing is that I was promised to get a kiss, but we're not planning anything exclusive. There's a girl he likes, and he would like to get exclusive with her, but he also likes me, and as I sad, he promised me a kiss. But there's one problem - he doesn't cheat.
So every time we see each other, I'm hoping to get a kiss, while I can get it...
Cross your fingers for me!
Princess*

The dilemma - gone

2010-09-04T01:26:00.000+02:00

I made up my mind...
The devil won.

In need of advice...

2010-09-03T23:36:00.001+02:00

I'm in a dilemma.
Love or passion?
The angel on my left shoulder says: love, of course. But there's also a devil sitting on my right shoulder and he says: passion. And damn it, he's one sexy devil!!
So...yeah - dilemma.
Princess*

The great comeback......or, not so great...

2010-08-20T11:50:00.001+02:00

Hi guys... Sorry I didn't write for a while...well, it's been a month really... Anyway, I apologize.
If you wonder why I didn't write - believe it or not, but I haven't had enough inspiration lately...
No, there were no problems, just...I guess I ran out of words...
So...here I am - again, listening to 977. The song is Three Days Grace - Never Too Late, and really, this world will never be what I expected...
Anyway...I miss my school days...
Princess*

Is it close?

2010-07-19T22:56:00.000+02:00

The world`s end.
Doomsday asteroid, robots inhering the Earth, super volcanoes, alien invasion or big freeze??
I watched the Discovery channel today and the topic was the world`s end. It is unbilievable how many scenarios there are. I`m in medical school and the one that interested me the most is called `Silver mucus`. You probably wonder what the silver mucus has to do with medicine - I`ll tell you.
We all know how medicine is `getting better` over the past few years. Well, there is a chance that there could be created small `robots` that would be `injected` into our body whenever we are in need of a surgery. They would do the doctor`s job. For example: if we need a surgery for getting out the tumor, the doctor will inject these robots into our bloodstream and they will, kind of, find the tumor and destroy it. The only problem is that these robots will have to reproduct theirself. How? - They would turn everything that they touch into another robot. So if we had 2 robots, now we`ll have 4. And that 8...and so on. The result is the `silver mucus` - every single atom on the Earth, and even the Earth itself will be turned into a giant `nest` of these robots...
What`s next?
(since this post was mostly about nanotechnology - here`s a website from whitch you can learn something more about it - www.nanowerk.com)

The Piano

2010-07-18T13:19:00.000+02:00

Definitely the best movie I have ever watched!!
The reason why I like it so much is because I play piano, and I love it so much...
The movie is about a women who has a daughter, and is being married to a man she didn`t even met yet. She and her daughter are being stransported to an island where her new husband lives. She also brought her piano to the island, so she could play. She basicly can`t live without it.
Oh, I forgot to mension that she is mute, so when she plays, she kind of expresses herself... There, on the island, she falls in love with a man who lives not far from their house. Her husband finds out...and I`ll stop here.
Sorry but If I tell you the whole story, there`s no point in watching the movie. You rather watch it.
Also, the music in the movie is great... It`s composed by Michael Nyman, and the composition that I like the most is called The Heart Asks Pleasure First. I`m definitely gonna learn to play it.
The actress that plays the women`s role is Holly Hunter, and she won the Oscar for the best actress in 1993, for this movie.

I`m walking on sunshine.........or by the sea.......?

2010-07-15T18:45:00.002+02:00

Finally! The sea!! It was soooo good to dive into it! ...oh.......sorry - I forgot to tell you - I`m in Croatia with my family. Gosh, I missed it (the sea)...we didn`t come here last year, and it was weard - my summer was kind of...lame.

So, I couldn`t wait to get here again, we are here for the third time and I love it here! The sea is beautiful, and the people here are very friendly. The destination is Mali Losinj. It`s located on an island called Losinj-Cres (Cres-Losinj) but people just call it Losinj. Sorry, seems like I complicated the sentence a little bit. My appologies. Anyway, it`s also known by it`s `nickname` - the island of dolphins (I didn`t see any yet but I`m an optimist and I believe that I`ll see them someday).
The temperature here is high but the sea if great as I said. I think that today it`s about 32 degress.

If you`re interested in culture - there is a museum called `The museum of Losinj` and also, every summer there is a music festival organized.

It`s really nice here, so if you`d like to spend your summer holiday in a quite place instead of a big city - I deffinately reccomend Mali Losinj.

(here are some pictures of the island)

My hobby

2010-07-10T23:06:00.002+02:00

- drawing. I love it. I only do pencil sketches, but I`m thinking that I could try something else... I just need to buy the material. I started to draw two years ago. I don`t do it every day, maybe two or three times a month, but I like to do it, and I think that my masterpieces (yes, I like to call them that) look pretty good (here are some pictures - hope you like them). Mostly I sketch faces (Avril Lavigne, I also did Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart). So there`s not really much to say - see for yourself.

Yellowcard

2010-07-05T22:37:00.009+02:00

Yellowcard is a rock band formed in Jacksonville (Florida) in 1997. They are best-known for their songs `Ocean Avenue`, `Only One`, `Lights and Sounds`, and `Light Up the Sky`.
So, as I said (wrote), Yellowcard was formed in 1997 in Jacksonville. They released their first album `Midget Tossing` in 1997. The original members were vocalist Ben Dobson, guitarist/vocalist Todd Clary, bassist Warren Cooke, guitarist Ben Eric Harper, and drummer Longineu W. Parsons III. `Where We Stand`, their second album, featured the same lineup as Midget Tossing. Soon Ben Dobson was replaced by Ryan Key(vocals and rhythm guitar) and in early 2000, the band recorded the Still Standing EP. Soon after Still Standing EP was released, Todd Clary left the band. Key then filled both Clary's and Dobson's duties, guitar and vocals.

The group released their third album, `One for the Kids` (Lobster Records), in 2001 and followed up with The Underdog EP. However, soon after The Underdog EP was released, Warren Cooke left the band due to personal reasons. The band then asked an old friend, Peter Mosely from Inspection 12, to play bass for them.
During the recording of Ocean Avenue, Mosely left. The band again began the search for a new bass player and found Alex Lewis, whose sister, Alieke Wijnveldt, contributed vocals to the Ocean Avenue track, `View From Heaven`. They released their first single from the album, `Way Away`.
In late 2003, the band finally broke through with a hit single `Ocean Avenue`. The song `Empty Apartment` (my favourite) was also featured on an episode of the TV Show One Tree Hill (I`ll write about this too). Suddenly, Yellowcard was everywhere from the covers of Alternative Press, to headliners of the 2004 Warped Tour!
Yellowcard members:
Ryan Key - lead vocals, rhythm guitar (since 2000)
Sean Mackin - violin, vocals (since 1997)
Ryan Mendez - lead guitar, vocals (since 2006)
Longineu W. Parsons III - drums, percussion (since 1997)
Discography:
Midget Tossing (1997)
Where We Stand (1999)
One for the Kids (2001)
Ocean Avenue (2003)
Lights and Sounds (2006)
Paper Walls (2007)
Official website:
http://www.yellowcardrock.com/

The music that completes me

2010-07-03T23:28:00.005+02:00

Second thing you should know about me are my favourite bands. I don`t only have one favourite band because I think that they are all pretty cool...correction - I think that they are all GREAT!! Well, let`s get to the point... First place is taken by Yellowcard and their `Empty Apartment`. Then there is Acceptance, Jimmy Eat World, Nickelback, 3 Doors Down, 30 Seconds to Mars, Dead by Sunrise, Linkin Park, Fall Out Boy, Krim, Nada Surf, Paramore, Snow Patrol, Switchfoot, The Goo Goo Dolls... Don`t be surprised, I told you that I don`t only have one favourite band...well, ok - I should probably mension that there aren`t only a few of them. My appologies... So since Yellowcard are the first - here is a picture of them.

Since you`ve met my roommate, it`s time to meet me!

2010-07-02T20:23:00.007+02:00

First thing you should know about me is that I apsolutely adore Dan Brown and Stephen King!! I think they are autors of an amazing stories! These days I`m reading King`s `Cell` and I must say that idea of human race becoming selfdestructive because of the little plastic thing like cell-phone is UNBILIEVEBLY BILIEVEBLE!! The fact is that I myself can`t emagine my life without my cell and I really shouldn`t agree with the message that this novel is supposed to give to us, but I do...I agree. So for those who like thillers and horrors I would deffinitely reccomend Brown`s and King`s books.

Meet & Greet

2010-06-30T22:31:00.006+02:00

So, I want you to meet my roommate, Mr. Ted. I named him Ted because he`s a teddybear (obviously) and as you can see he`s a punker. I must say, he`s an angel - he NEVER complains about the kind of music I listen to, you wouldn`t believe it!! Anyway, I hope you like his haircut because I do.

P.S.: For those who are already looking for door... - give up.

Hello, bonjour, hallo, ciao, ahoj...or however you like

2010-06-30T00:52:00.002+02:00

So, I woke up this morning and decided to make a blog...just like that, out of blue...
Where do I start? - Why Red Room? Well...I`m planning to share with U guys all the things that are supposed to stay between the four red walls that make my room. I will turn this blog into some kind of online diary, so if you really become interested in my world - I can asure you that you`re going to get to know me pretty well. I think that this is quite enough for the start...read me tomorrow.
Princess*